How am I doing?
NOVEMBER 16, 2009
I’ve been very busy but doing very well. The weather has caused me to slack on the outside daily activity, but I am still quite active as I do have a one year old and a teenager to look after on a daily basis. I found the pressure of trying to write a daily blog was helping me to ignore some priorities and stop helping myself. I need to be thinging through my ideas and my revelations more for myself before I share them. A daily blog is a bit too much for me right now, I have kids and daily responsibilities that come first. I enjoy sharing some of things that I go through and what I am learning but I have to let some things marinate a bit longer before I share them.
WEEK SEPTEMBER 14 – 20
So far I’ve been doing well. Having this blog as a project and realizing how many cheerleaders I do have that understand and are compassionate about some of my struggles is having an interested effect on me. I feel like it is my responsibility to get better now, and that my condition is not an excuse anymore. I also really appreciate all the comments as well as those who have shared their stories of anxiety with all the readers. I really do believe this is how we can all get over some of our anxieties.
Wake up – I have been trying to get up before my son wakes me, so I can breathe and spend a little bit of alone time before my day starts. This is a challenge, but I did it more than I didn’t this week.
Stay active – so far I have gone on a 25ish minutes walk/jog with my son and dog (both in the stroller) everyday since Saturday except yesterday. Yesterday, I felt yucky in the morning and it was so dreary outside I decided not to bring my son and that I would got after he went to bed. But by then my mother had called and said that there was an escaped convict loose with two police officer’s guns in my neighboring town so I decided against my run through the forest preserve at night.
Stay positive – I do not know how to quantify this one, but I will say that without a can-do attitude I wouldn’t have done as much as I have this week. I have to thank all those who have written me and commented on the site for thier kind words and support.
Stay social - Not only did I go the the church meeting on Tuesday night, where instead of sticking my face in a book or pretending I have an important call to make, I spent the 10 minute break getting to know a kind older gentlemen that will be sharing this 6 week training with me, I also had a play date with my neighbor who has a daughter my sons age…and I had a blast.
Do something every day that scares me. Let’s see, Monday I started a blog, putting all my struggles and fears out in the open for all of you to read. Tuesday, I went to a meeting full of people that I do not know, at a location I had never been to. Thursday, I had a play date with a very new friend. So I am still working on the everyday thing. I can not recall all the little struggles of those days – I can’t remember wednesday at all, but the big victories – the play dates and the church meeting those stick with me. Those make me proud.
